yakalskovich | Only the paranoid survive...

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Only the paranoid survive...

More and more, the entries on my f-list are f-locked; I need to log in as myself to see what is going on. Even I have been known to post entries f-locked to my "Dyskworlders" friends' group when I didn't want to spam everybody with

discworld_rpg related stuff, or was being sentimental, or both.

But somehow, everybody has lately started doing that. I know about some people, but generally I wonder whether that is just something goiong around memtically, like a mental cold, or what people really are afraid of.

Also, there is that one point where the concept of "private tags" we're using at the Discworld RPG is superior to the actual f-locking: there, you can take not only whole posts, but also comments and even parts of comments private and hide them from all the other characters (while the muns read on all the more avidly). On actual LJ, I need to know somebody's email address and mail them.

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In general, the main time I friends-lock my entires is because I have set up a filter to keep Caleb and Daniel out. Thus if I am complaining about Caleb or talking about what I got him for Christmas, he is filtered out. Almost no other entries are locked.

Yes, I have realised that. The f-lock against your best RL friend is quite an amusing example of Why People F-Lock. I am really just collecting reasons for it out of interest, not complaining.

argh *paranoia*

Well, there are very valid situation when she has to vent about him. Precisely because he's her best RL friend. Don't we all have them?

i don't do that :S yellowsummer might *pout* bah.

it's bloody exclusivity, that's what it is. most my friends have it and they don't even enable me to link my other friends to their discussions. they are not afraid of anything, it's just snobbery or rather - they know all the people they want to know. i find it weirdest when they have twice as many friends as they friended, since that means their journal cannot be actually read by all those nonfriended people.

i can't even rant properly. they are doing it more and more. grrr.
and as i will have to ask in the other comment as well, what are muns. moderatingmums?

Muns are the RL people/RL LJs behind the characters. Ethymology unknown. To someone who knows me only fleetingly from the

discworld_rpg, I am Tantony-mun, or Margolotta-mun, or whichever of my characters they're referring to at the moment.

Some of it might be snobbery, yes, especially if you're some sort of minor star in fandom or think they would like to be. But I don't think that's why the people on myf-list are doing it.

hm. not sure if i get the technics of this, but i guess it's because you own the com in equal parts that all of you, but none of your readers can see the private .. parts *snort*

sorry, expressed myself badly. bnfs hardly ever lock their journals. my friends dont do it from that kind of snobbery, it's a bad word. but the other stuff holds true. and considering that they like to be friended, but don't give anything in return ... weird. my brain is too stuffy and scared to think right. i keep asking them to undo it and tease them about it anyway.

No, it's not a technology, it's a convention. Our readers can read, our muns can read, we just agree that characters can't read private tags unless they're addressed to them. And strikeouts, characters can't read at all.

Personally, I never use f-lock. If there's something that I don't want the world in general to know, I just, er, don't put it up on the Internet.

Heh! Good answer. But what if it's something you only want specific part of the world to know, like the other RPG-muns?

then you flock that one thing - but that's different to locking a whole journal or at least nearly all posts out of principle.

Yes, I only ever f-lock those things that are too weirdly RPG related for a general audience.

Well, most of my f-list _is_ the RPG-muns.

Well, in that case, there is no problem at all, of course.

How is the Rev?

Frantically busy and having the time of his life, I think. I have a pretty good idea what his Octeday sermon was like, but I can't decide if it should be mentioned in a journal post of his or a mini-fic in the community journal. Your guys were back home before Octeday, right?

The whole Borogravian plot thing sometimes bothers me, because it _looks_ so much as if I know what I'm doing, and I really have no idea. It's distressingly like my real life that way.

My guys went home on Saturday itself; having a vampire who can fly properly (as in "Carpe Jugulum") is very useful for spontaneously getting from A to B. Well, if the Rev posts about his Octeday sermon in his journal, that means that my guys could reply. Including Margo, who is a tad bored now almost all her "Seminary" has gone back to Ankh-Morpork.

Beth actually mentioned having been to Munz and having painted the blackboard in his latest post, but behind the cut, as the thing was getting long - that wasn't a private tag, that was just cut for size.

Oh, don't worry, the best plots happen when you're clueless. The whole werewolf thing was started in utter cluelessness, just to have something to keep my too-strong vampire character from meddling in the Lacrimosa plot line.

Hmm. I notice the phenomenon too.

I have been locking a precious few posts, and while I'm always slightly paranoid anyway that RL people whom I don't want to will read my LJ, I try to ignore that threat and post away freely. Whenever I want to be sure I want to keep it away from them, I'll lock. Or sometimes, when I want to pass along a private message to one special person.

How doeas this pricatising of comments work? It would definitely come in handy because sometimes you get private in comments to a post you'd still like to stay public..

Oh, as I explained to

_inbetween_ somewhere here in this mess, the "private tags" are an agreement, not a technology. They are fictional, but I wish they would exist.

The one thing I don't want to have to explain to RL people is the RPG. Apart from where a) they're not at all interested and b) the explanation of "Open Source Storytelling" is enough for almost everyone to turn them back. So really, I don't bother very much.

I only have f-lists for the purposes of viewing my flists, not really for posting. (I friend many many people.) Though I did for a short while have some things f-locked because I'd just, er, broken up with my boyfriend and it felt strange to kind of... carry on with things when I knew he was hurting. Or something. Blah.

Hmmm. In order to spare others - that's an interesting new reason. And very valid, of course.-

Yes. I rarely f-lock though. What's the point in keeping my art from others? The main point of my journal is to get feedback, after all.

Some pour out their souls, and are worried who might read it. Some tell funny or remarkable stories from their lives and worry the people they lampoon might find them - I wouldn't want of my actual colleagues to see my LJ. So I dono't tell them it exists, of course.

But yes, feedback. I love having discussions on my LJ. The best part is when former strangers start talking there, and I just watch them at it...

Sometimes the un-flist is a hostile environment. Case in point, a certain small bunch of RL people have some sort of dramatic vendetta thing going against my journal. Or did; everyone oughtta be simmering down three weeks post-facto so that I can unlock everything again.

I hate hate hate having to lock my entries. It bothers me. I wish Strikes/Private-tags worked as they do on the RP; that would make things easier.

Unfortunately, I'm no coder, so I can't go and examine the code to see whether strikeouts and private tags can be realised in some way.

What did the vendetta people do, and why?

Oh, heh, I was being facetious. I already told you the gist: Someone I used to hang out with is suddenly convinced I'm writing stuff about him online. Huh? This is silly, and funny, so when he "confronted" me I started laughing. I couldn't help myself, it was too stupid. And now his friends think I'm insensitive? Dramadrama? Christ. Get a hobby.

The only thing I can think of RE: Private Tags is cut text colored white that you need to highlight to read? It could be half-sekrit. Sort of? I'm not good at being secretive, I mean, it took me three weeks to realize that f-lock means no one who's not logged in can read my stuff. I kept opening my own Recent page and thinking Hey, where did all my entries go?

Oh, that one? Why not let him look, then, because you're really not writing about hiim, as there's so many more interesting things in the world than yucky het males?

Heh, the login stuff is such a bother. Login as myself and look what's happening. OK. Login as the Captain for RPage so I can use all his purdy icons. Get a notify for me, find out it was a locked item, change identity, to me. Next notify, for the Captain, change identity because of the icons. And so on and so on...

I'm in a huff, that's why I've started f-locking. I mean, what is this, sixth grade?

The new Captain icons are purdy. But I've got this weird personal stigma against making anything other than 100x100. I haven't any idea why.

Thank you! I haven't even finished yet; there will be more Captain icons, presumably tonight or tomorrow morning, and then I will meditate on them a few days, and then I'm going to exchange all of them. Well, nearly all; the ones called "Red" and "Dubious" are staying.

I noticed that

kingverence's icons totally weren't 100x100, and when I mentioned that to

freeformchick, she said hers rarely are, and then I suddenly realised they don't bloody have to be!! I had been thinking inside the box all the time.

And, well, your icons are artsy, and you make them especially, and you have that characteristic bevel-cut or whatever you may call it. So it's something different from simple portraiture that shows a character doing emotions and variations.

It's the design fiend in me let loose in Photoshop. Layer blending options!! Color alteration!!! I get a bit too excited. And then everyone ends up with beveled edges.

Of the Captain icons, this (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v504/lajosspics/Iconage/nli18.jpg), this (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v504/lajosspics/Iconage/nli09.jpg), and this (http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v504/lajosspics/Iconage/nli24.jpg) are my favorites.

Heh!! Beveled edges. Yes. So at least everybody can see which are your icons. This one doesn't have any, astonishingly, though.

The first icon you like will most likely be the new default icon for the Captain; the third has good chances to be the new icon for "Smiling", and about the middle one I don't know yet.

The first one is just awesome. default for sure. :)

The middle one could be any number of things. His expression is ambiguous. I like it because of the darkness and the droplets of sweat... or tears? whatever they are.

Heh, thanks. Yes, new default certainly. For a long time, I couldn't find anything more defaulty thatn the one the Captain has now, but this is somehow nicer.

- Water, actually; it's from the same steam-bath scene from "Monte Cristo" as the icons in use under the names of "Red" and "Steamy". "Steamy" gets repleced with a better version of the same screen cap, and "Red" stays. And this one might be "Wet" or "Distressed" and be new. Cause I'm going to splurge and buy the Captain additional icons when I renew his paid account, which is due in a few days.

I've noticed that I'm one of the strange people who rarely f-locks anything. I used to always f-lock angst posts, but I've grown out of the habit of using LJ to rant.

On the other hand, I'm a big user of private entries. I'll post notes to myself, links, or even scraps of html/quiz results that I'm collecting for my next big quiz post. I've even got a big to-do-list post dated October 10, 2010. :D

2010, huh??

I very, very rarely rant on LJ; for me it's a communicative medium, and I don't like to bare my paranoias to all and sundry. Especially as they tend to be gone by morning, and then I just feel plain silly for ever having entertained them. I sometimes do work-related rants, but those stay unlocked, as I really want everyone to see what utter idiots poor me has to work with...

I'm hoping that by 2010, I'll at least be able to cross off half the list. XD

That's kinda what it's turned into for me. When I started, I was hoping to be able to use it as an outlet for fic, but I've since lost my inspiration. Now, it changes from day to day what I use it as. Sometimes a serious journal, sometimes a place to ask questions, start conversations, sometime just a way to see if I can make people laugh!

It's how people talk these day. World Wide Chatter. The Bazaar. I think it's totally fascinating and love it for its inspirations.

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Oh dear, that sounds so not good. I tend to fail miserably at the high drama myself; and occasionally it all gets too much. Nobody expects me to answer much to their dramatic emotional things anyway. But you having to hide from teh RL!Angst, that's another valid and amusing reason...

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As she caught Maltings, not much, I would think; in the end, the result is everything.

But finally, I can't say what

_ludorum_ will say; that up to his mun and the mysterious spark that makes him into a viable and slightly independent character entity.

I simply don't want to get on people's nerves with my own late-night doubts and stuff induced by not being able to resolve it right away; and I sometimes fear I might say the wrong thing when people angst, and so rather stay silent.

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Oh yes; I am going to make a Tappic post soon, but am actually waiting for anything to happen in between my current Captain post and that. I find it a bit disharmonious if two of my characters post immeditely after each other on the general RPG flist. I'm a bit weird that way.-

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There's a certain reluctance against doing too much, or spamming the list, or playing by myself, or something to that effect.

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Yes, wonderful! That will work well, then. Thanks.

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I'm not yet asleep; I'm finishing a very charming book, and watching Placebo on a DVD. And I've posted as Teppic as well now. Go Assassins!

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